Thank you everyone. Today was not any easier than the last two. I found myself calling her to come to bed last night and realized she's not coming and started crying. I always save her a chunk of meat from my lunch when I'm at work, tonight I did the same and then looked down and threw it out. There is going to be a lot of changes I need to get use to around here. I can't actually believe our time has ended for now. I have had clos people pass away in my life but non have hurt like this. She was always there to offer kisses and snuggles to anyone in need and was a rock for my wife and mother inlaw when we lost here dad/husband. I keep trying to imagine her running and playing but its hard. I know the pain will never fully go away nore do I want it to as then her memory won't be as strong with me thanks again everyone
