I PUT MY DOG TO SLEEP

[trouble]

TUESDAY EVENING I PUT MY 8 YEAR OLD GOLDEN RETRIEVER TO SLEEP.
SINCE HE WAS 2 YEARS OLD HE WOULD HAVE GRAND MAL SEIZURES.
HE WOULD FALL OVER LEGS WAILING AND YELPING,URINATE
THEY WOULD LAST ABOUT TWO OR THREE MIN.
HE WAS ON MEDICATION SO IT WAS PRETTY MUCH UNDER CONTROL.
HE WAS ALWAYS AT THE VET,BUT WITH MEDICATION HE WAS PRETTY HAPPY.
HE WAS ALSO ON PREDISPOSE BECAUSE HE HAD TROUBLE STANDING.
LIKE I SAID THE MEDICATION WAS WORKING.
WITHIN THE LAST YEAR, HE WOULD HAVE 4 TO 8 SEIZURES IN ONE DAY EVERY THREE MONTHS, WHICH WOULD UPSET ME VERY MUCH.
I FELT HELPLESS, AND  MUST ADMIT, FRIGHTENED TO SEE HIM HAVE SEIZURES IN FRONT OF ME.
NO MATTER WHAT HE HAD WRONG WITH HIM, I WOULD BRING HIM TO THE VET AND HE WOULD BE FINE FOR A FEW MONTHS.
TUESDAY HE WAS GREAT!
ABOUT 7:30 PM HE FELL OVER AND HAD A SEIZURE.
AFTER THAT HE HAD 2 OR 3 MORE SEIZURES AND I GAVE HIM SEIZURE MEDICATION.
IT WAS A NEW MEDICATION AND I THINK IT SEDATED HIM.
I DID NOT THINK THAT AT THE TIME BECAUSE I WAS SO DISTRAUGHT.
HE WAS JUST LAYING THERE.I CALLED MY VET AND HE TOLD ME TO BRING HIM THERE.
I CARRIED HIM TO THE CAR.I WAS IN FULL PANICK MODE,NOT THINKING AT ALL.
WHEN I CARRIED HIM IN. HE TOLD ME HE WOULD GIVE HIM VALIUM AND THAT I WOULD HAVE TO BRING HIM TO THE HOSPITAL SO THEY COULD MONITOR HIM.
HE WAS ABOUT TO CLOSE.
I THOUGHT HE WAS GOING TO TAKE CARE OF HIM.
I WAS SO UPSET,NOT THINKING THAT I HAD HIM PUT TO SLEEP.
I'M SORRY I DID THAT RATHER THAN SEE IF HE WOULD BOUNCE BACK.
I FEEL GUILTY THAT I DIDN'T TAKE HIM TO THE HOSPITAL.
MONEY WAS NOT AN ISSUE.
I MUST ADMIT THAT I WAS THINKING MORE ABOUT ME THAN ABOUT MY DOG.
I CAN'T BRING HIM BACK,I KNOW THE PAIN WILL GO AWAY,BUT RIGHT NOW I FEEL GUILTY.

[brads70]

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm so attched to my little buddy too and someday he will be gone too. I guess all we can do is be gratefull for the time we have together?

[6packCuda]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know I'd be devastated if anything happened to my dog. Hopefully you can take some comfort knowing that he's not suffering anymore. Sounds like he's had a pretty rough time. Hang in there.

[RB2929]

Trouble-
So sorry to hear that you lost your best friend.
I've had my puppy for two years and love her.
I can't imagine the day when she's no longer there.
MHO - you did what you had to do. 
Here again, sorry for your loss

I had to come back and add that anybody that ever had a dog feels for you right now.
I read your story and teared.

take care my friend,
Ron

[1ownr]

Sorry to hear about your pal, I know how you feel. After I had to have our Welch Terrier put down, I kept thinking that I could have waited a little longer. Every so often I expect to hear his nails clicking on the tiles. It takes awhile, don't expect the feelings to go away overnight, but just know that you did the best you could. The only tape to rewind is the one with all the happy times on it.

take care
judy

[cudagirl4406pk]

I am very sorry to hear that we had to out down our dog of 16 years couple of months ago and i know how hard it is to go through that.My thoughts are with you.



michele

[BIGSHCLUNK]

Dont beat yourself up on this. As a dog owner of many years I have been through this a few times. ITS NEVER EASY!! They are always members of the family. Its never a day goes buy when I dont remember my boys from days gone by. Time will help, and were here if you need support and understanding.   
BIGS

[pink panther]

sorry to hear taht, as Big said, I have had to do it many times, it is never easy. But, through time you learn to heal.

[bb71challenger]

Sorry to hear that. Never an easy thing.

[Topcat]

It can be really hard on you and difficult to accept. It'll take time to heal. Sorry to hear about your loss.

I'm trying to prepare myself for our dog that is on his way out. He is in such bad shape now that he doesn't get out of his bed to go number 2. Yet he's still very mentally sharp. These type of decisions are really hard to make what's best to do for them.

As far as money goes on pets, Cost is no object. We spent alot on our Cat to save him. I wouldn't hesitate to do it again either. Hang in there and don't be hard on yourself.

[priderocks]

Mark Twain said something like "If heaven were based on merit, our dogs would be in and we would be out."

Any dog owner would agree.

[AARCUDADEN]

Sorry about your four legged friend  I too have two little pugs that mean the world to me and i hate to think of the day when i'll lose them

[Bills70]

I totally understand what you are going thru! my dog was having seizures too but his spleene(?) ruptured and the emergency vet told me I had no option but to put him down, on that next monday when I talked to my regular vet he told me that was BS!! that my dog could have lived without his spleene! I was very unhappy and felt I was told to put my dog down falsley.  It has taken me a while to get over it but I finally realized that he is  alot better off not having those seizures all of the time. they could not have been easy for him and my dog's were not as bad as it sounds like your dogs were! They are in a better place now and we enjoyed them while we had them! I finally had to come to accept that! I know it is a loss and painful but remember the goodtimes, and take it from me don't give away all of his things right away you might regret it later! I did! 
Sorry this is a little morbid but I had my dog cremated and I get solace in his remains sitting on my sideboard! he is in a nice little black walnut box! with his name on a brass plate! just something to think about if it is not too late.
again sorry for your loss
dogs are a woderful comforting addition to life
Bill

[torredcuda]

Our old dog Star also had seizures.When she had the first one I thought she was dying in fornt of me from a heart attack or something.I brought her to the vet and they said it was a seizure.She continued to have them thru her life but they were not bad enough or frequent enough to warrant medication.Later when she was 17 yrs old she started having really bad ones and after many emergency and vet visits it was thought to be lesions on the brain so we had to put her to sleep.After 17 years it was the toughest thing to go thru so I know how bad you feel,you just have to think of all the good times you had with them.

[torredcuda]

Star`s puppy picture