Lots of great advice guys - tyhanks from my heart.
Sitting here feeling like a damn loser even though I know its not me....they wanted all of the work I was doing done out of the head office in NY rather than where I am......they already gave my job to the guy who I trained......Senior Multimedia Producer....I was the only one in the company now he is. But he has literally NO experience...buys templates to do his work and I create from scratch.....
I just dont know how to start over.
Its my fault. I have been complacent in my job as far as my own development -- concentrated on getting the overwork done well - and let them pigeon hole me ...thought I was doing right by them and me and in the end they chuck me like yesterdays trash.....
Amazing how one decision to hire one new executive can put so many things into motion and so many lives in turmoil. They eliminated two other folks the same day they did me. And from what I hear there may be "more changes" to come.
How did you guys get through the depression? I just keep thinking and syaing to myself - "Now what?". It just seems so hopeless...even a ride in the fish today couldnt get me out of it.....went to sleep last night in front of the tv at 11 and woke up at 1:30 and couldnt sleep again....couldnt eat til 3 oclock and it went roght thru me. I am trying to stay strong for my kids and my wife but man I am scared. They deserve better.
I used to joke about how with all the life insurance etc I have I am worth waaaaaay more in the hole than walking. Its even more clear now.
Dont take this the wrong way -- I would never consider anything dumb....that company's bad decision isnt worth that.....and I know my family needs me.....but damn, its demoralizing when you think about the financial numbers....
And I dont know if I want to stay here and find another job in teh same industry or another one or move somewhere new altogether. I really want to move but starting a new career on top of uprooting the family, i dont know if I could take that stress..LOL
Since you asked, I am a video editor and producer by trade....started on tape formats back in 91 after graduating with a degree in comm media (magna cum laude if I do say so myself)....started freelancing for a major financial company in our region and did that for 6 or 7 years - they were phasing out freelancers and offered me a full time position albeit with a big pay cut...I took it banking on the future. That lasted 15 years to almost the day. Managed/produced 100 (on average) video productions or AV projects in a typical year for the last 6 of those. Hired and managed crews all across the world. Edited as much as I could in house and contracted out other projects and managing those projects. A lot of internally focused training/communication videos, webcasts, events etc. Some externally facing webcasts and videos in the last several years. Did my own project management, established branding and video standards, built a set (that alone was a $150-200k project). I managed approximately $200,000 or so worth of crew expenses and such in a typical year by my rough estimation.
I was basically am anager but instead, in that company, I was a one man agency/editor/videographer.
Financial services industry.
Would love to get into a similar job but in a new and more exciting industry.
I have always dreamed of working with music video - but I am 45 and that is a young man's industry. Plus, not much in the way of music video production in Pittsburgh....LOL
Geezuz....sorry for the long post.